3 posts tagged “corner of thoughts”

   Today it is very very cold,it's snowing while i am walking back,when the snow touch the floor,it metls straight away because there are sunshine.Such a fragile snow....But the snow kept on blowing and blowing,after came back,i had a long long chat with Ann Gie,i am so happy,both of us haven't been talking online for so long,at least i knew what she thinks recently,she kept on emphesized that please enjoy your univeristy life,please appreciate them,I guess everyone who already started working will feel the same.

   I am enjoying myself right now,but i just feel that i am getting older and older,i don't like going out during weekend,i prefer to be at home,living on my own pace,do whatever i want,cleaning,baking,surfing,etc...

  I chatted with Khong Ming as well,i knew he takes me as his really really best friend,he really wish that i could attend his wedding,i wish i could do so too,as he said,if God can provide me more money and more time,i am sure i can attend,the better is he,the more gulity i will feel,i really don't want to regret,i regretted not meeting him in Germany in his last 3 years Europe trip,i almost had done so,but due to economic reason,i gave up,i don't want to add up my parent's burden,so in the end i felt so wasted,regret.I really don't wish that the same thing will happen to me,is his wedding,once in a life time,me as his best friend,what could i do more for him???

 Saying about regret,i regret i always like to drag my thing last minute,i regret doing Siew Wen's invitation slow,i regret i never do it once i came back,if not for sure now she can already bought her ticket,then she will be very happy and more motivated to study for her coming exam,i am such a lousy sister,what can i do,if compare to my er jie,i think i am far lack behind,she did her decision fast,she knew her direction of moving forward,this is what i will never learn,i must learn to be better and better!!!

  Today this just crossed my mind,blogging is like writing an essay,i am famous to be long winded when wrote essay in school last time,so do my blog,haha.

  Tonight i was chatting with a good friend of mine,he told me one shocking news,i never expected this to happen,but why him and her,why couldn't be another girl.I don't know this is a good news or bad news,of course deep in my heart i am feeling something,this thought kept of distracting me from my "valvular heart disease" class topic.I have been no disciplne all this while,studying time,my thought will be flying around uncontrollable.I wish i could train myself to be more discipline,shouldn't say wish,i should say i must,i must learn how to control my attention,i can't just freak myself out of little things happen around.It's time to grow up!!!

 May be i should learn from this song....

   I realised whenever i blog is i will complain about time flies and i couldn't cope up with the space,time really flies,i came back already 10 weeks and another 7 weeks 2008 come to an end,and 2009 will be coming.All the forwarding emails and advertisements about holiday season,christmas,thanks giving etc.I am kind of scared when time passed too fast and i couldn't be in pace.

   I just realised my youngest sister did do some blogging since year 2006,what am i seriously,i didn't even read the blog before until now.But from the blog,i know why she is in Taylor's college,what her little thought,because to me,she is always a kid,will never grow up,will never know what to do,only know enjoying herself.However after reading her blog,i realised,i am totally wrong,she is growing up,she thinks maturely though she doesn't act like she is,she knows what is her responsibility towards herself and the family,i am amazed.I am glad that i grown up in such a lovely and close family.

   Envy to see my sister,Siew Wen updated her blog with such a happening life in UK,but at the same time feel so happy for her because she is doing good and enjoying her university life,it's only once in a life time,so make it a memorable one.

   I wish i could blog like how she did also,at least can let my er jie and my younger sisters know what am i doing and what am i up to recently,but no passionate,no commitment to that,must learn how to discipline myself.

  Another thing,i didn't take photo as frequent as Siew Wen did,if eveytime need to wirte,haha,that would take me long and bored too,i think blog with pictures will speak everything.

  I miss everyone from home a lot,such a homelover like me will never stop missing every single thing from home.I love you all so much.