Yesterday morning,before leaving to class,i called my mum,talking to her and telling her about camera and about his stories.Then mum suddenly said something really remind me that i need to study hard,she said you know how to earn money,so that wouldn't be a problem.She is right,i must know how to earn money,give to her,daddy,to my sisters and of course to my beloved brother.
Yesterday i did nothing praticularly,after class 12.13pm,went shopping with Zoey,took our own sweet time,girl's shopping,If Alvin will be there,fast fast,hehe.Then reach home around 1.45pm,then chatted with him though the phone,then book our winter trip-Something that i looking forward to,my christmas market trip,basically everywhere i go due to the christmas market.I know i gonna love them,but i am worry of unbearable cold and also feel a bit guilty.But i had a long long long chat with Alvin since he came back till the night.
It's really fun,it has been quite sometime we didn't do so,seating and talking and talking about everything,about relationship,about some point of views towards certain thing.One of our topic is educated better ot less educated is alright,both of us still think that educated is the best,compare his uncles and aunties....
At night,went to 2 open houses,one is for Deepavali,one is for Aidilfitri one,both of the food are superb,too full.Found out some surprise fact...Eventually got someone who doesn't want to go back home after finished studying here.I really i wish i could be like her,but am i dare,if i no need to worry about financial i will just go ahead,really.I will.I know it's only how many percentage for me to get something out there,but i still wanna give a try,i know it's not easy at all,but really i wish i could.
So many unachieved things that i supposed to achieve.....get myself a kick!!!
I felt so tired mentally.I don't know so many things.This afternoon when i read Siew Wen's email,i was crying.Poor sister that need to work because of money and learn to support herself.I am lucky compare to them,even the youngest one Ming Ming also went through all these harsh life before.Next year when i start working,so many for me too learn.I have been pampared all these while.I want it the way i want it to be.
But so many "don't know" in me....i just finshed skyping with Siew Wen,felt so lost....don't know what am i doing,reading,heading to....she is so excited to talk to me,but i am so just don't know how,don't know how to tell her to be strong,don't know how to tell myself that i can give her money to spend and etc...i wish i could...but again...i don't know....
Tired and tired....heading no where.Though i am in my final year,but so many don't know and worry around me,i wish i could....if i know this...if i know that....eventually i don't know about all these before all things happened....
Just wished and cross finger that life will be beautiful....same to everyone that i love...
Today i have been angry to so many things that occured,i look tired and eventually,i felt so irritated by so many things.Though you are saying from your point,but i am looking from my point.I still believe what i believe,though it may be wrong,though it may be right.But just the heart to protect my dearest one:(
Today i got a shocking news from Zoey,how come such a thing exist in the world,thing which is not exist but been talking by people as if it exist.I really so angry!!!But never mind,Siew Wen said that don't be like the person so shallow,i agree with that.Nothing can disturb us when we are doing everything correct.
Today I go and help him clean his room,only little thing that i managed to do,i wish i could help him more:(
Evening went to learn baking Russian style of cake from downstairs Aunty.It was really fun,she told and demonstrate to me at the same time.She is worried that i don't understand,she kept on repeating.Then both of us catch up with each other,i knew her since i was in 1st year,we used to be so closed when she helped us clean the house,after that she got married and stayed in another city because her husband was there,now she is back because of her job,there is job available for her here.Both of us catch up with each others like long lost friend,i really had so much of fun.
Suddenly aunty started crying,she said she didn't get to see us anymore after we left.She cried for quite long.I hugged her,saying thank you to her for has been helping us a lot since first year,really grateful to meet her,helped us pay electricity,helped us pay telephone bill,helped us find people to repair when something spoilt.I felt really grateful,when she cried,i felt sad too.....
Human is just interesting!!!!
A short weekend break,it was fun though the weather was really wet and damp.But we had fun buying stuff from vietnamese market.I saw 'Siao Bai Chai" and also 'Choi Sum",i wish i am studying there.My mum no need to send me so many vegetables.I told Ma Ney about this,Ma Ney said you can go once a month to buy it.How come they don't sell it in Simferopol???
If i discover this earlier,i really would go there for green vegetables.Just now we boiled it and eat with noodles.It's really good.Green vegetables is really good.
I had my favourite Gelato in Karavan shopping center,though it's not as good as Italy one but i can have it in Ukraine,no complaint else.
It's a lovely and enjoyable trip being taken well care by someone.Thanks for all the luxuries and stress free that i got!!!
I was searching for song in you tube,come across this song.Still remembered vividly,last time i love to sing this song so much and my dearest Er Jie played piano.I miss those time so much.She will be playing piano,others will be singing and telling which song we want to sing.
I was scrolling my document to find case report,then i found this song which Ivy sent me in my received file.I love this song so much,i miss Ivy and Vinvie so much whom love the song as well!!!
This song is so hopeful and touching!!!
I wish to pause the time,just finished lovely Bat Kut teh dinner in Zoey's claypot,as i am in Malaysia.Just finished chatting with Siew Wen and lovely Raj,miss them and those time in UK so much,so happy and no need to think about anything.Now is movie time,hope everyday will be this wonderful.
Thanks Yiyi for kept replying my mail though she's so busy,so lucky to have her to advise me in relationship issue,i am lucky!!!
Finally i chat with Siew Wen through skype today for almost an hour,though i just talked to her last week,not even a week yet,but i felt like already so long.Though everyday we email each other,and she did sms me from time to time,but still can't feel the happiness after talking.I miss her so much,i wish to see her soon.I don't know when but really wish really soon.
I felt things are so different,felt like so long didn't talk to Er Jie,Ming may be due to they are busy moving house.I did talk to dad and mum because i called their mobile phone normally.I cook steam pork ribs today,of course not as good as home cook one,but i wish that i could cook all the food for Siew Wen.She must be missing home,this little girl that don't really care about her own meal.
I am pretty lucky to be brought up like this,i knew and i will try for what i want to eat and do,now i am still lagging behind in my studies,but i need to make sure i do what am i supposed to,others all could leave me,but not my knowledge,once i know something,that will be forever in my brain,it will turns into money in future,so i must keep this in mind to make sure i go forward,don't let anything dragged me backwards.
I wish all that didn't happen,but at the same time i enjoyed those which happened,but the same words,i got no regret for what i have done....
September 2009-First month of my final year of medical school.So many things had happen,happenning month.Left London came back to Ukraine,crying in the tube even before reaching Heathrow,both of us pretend that we don't see each others crying.
After that,got my mummy's parcel through CH on 3rd of September.Lucky me like i am still in Malaysia,i got so many things,Green Vegetables,Hong Bak,Arca,"chai Boi" by Yi Lek and meat ball by Ah Bo,Durian cake from Uncle Sin Tiong's wife.So many things,mooncake,fruits,all kind of vegetables,fish cake and fish ball, that i have.I am so so so lucky,that's the only thing i could say.
I cook my favourite 'Lao huang gua' soup but not as nice as those my house cook one:( Ingredients to cook as below:
090909 i went out with special friend and got a really good night out,i felt myself like a princess,it's so good being loved!!!
We had BBQ to clear the charcoal!!!My favourite bbq mashmallow,i love it!!!
We had raya Celebration,me and my wished to do watermelon basket by CH.Thanks CH for doing the great job:)THanks a lot!!!
Jonathon,Soon Kie,Phui Lim,CH,Alvin and I went out for early moon cake celebration.We had pink fish,pork and also "Spud" salad.It's good!!!
