What do i want in my life?Being smart?Being pretty?Being slim?Being kind?i know the answer well,i want to be someone smart and slim,can i be greedy,?I want both of these,i want to be slim and smart.Exams coming in 11 days time.So many things to input and i felt my brain space is too small to fit in everything.How can others be so calm,i am really scared.I am wishing for a pass but with knowledge in my brain,so when i started working next time,i will be facing less problem.Being able to have knowledge in the brain,beside reading still reading to have knowledge.
Gaining a lot of weight over this week,what had i done previously just fly off,i have putting on weight just over one week.How could this be so easy,but be frankly to admit,it is my craving mouth that non stop eating carbohydrates,a lot of cakes,eating non stop,that's the problem.Haih,why this so happen???If there is something in life,like a sport person,like a dancer,for sure they won't be like that,they need to be slim,even though they craving for carbohydrate foods,but they still continue dancing to burn the calories off,so this is the different:(.
I am badly craving for sweet things,but i didn't go jogging and also yoga,eating and sitting and studying.This is bad!!!!Either reduce food or either do exercise???i must do so!!!
Things fall on their place.We have our own aim,and own things to accomplish.Exams coming in 13 days time.I have 2 things to worry,eating too much and sleeping too much.I have been eating and didn't feel full,i don't know what is wrong with me.I didn't go on diet since last 2 weeks,i didn't go jog for almost a month,i didn't do yoga for almost a month too.Currently dealing with books and library.I ate too much and the worse thing is i didn't feel full after eating,haih:(
Sleeping too much is just bad too,haih,how i wish that i no need to sleep and no need to eat,then more time would go to my books.Please help me so!!!
Today when i was chatting with my sister on skype,surprisingly that Chen Meng appear offline but kept on pasting me something.I thought it's virus,because he is appear offline.I am so touched and delighted to know that he read my blog,he does concern about what is going on with us.Thank you,Chen Meng for such caring.Even Teng Loon wouldn't do so though i asked him to do so:(
I had a long long chat with him,telling about love and alcohol,haha,is me who can talk everything with him.He is my childhood friend,he used to be bullied by me,but now thinking back,those memories are just too fun.
Life is just full with surprises,all kind of people around the world,something unexpected that occured made me realise that this world is filled with different kinds of people.Time to go bed now,zzzz.....
一个人的我，依然过得很好。早上，奇迹地把杨瑜升给把醒，陪我吃麦当劳早餐去。吃了早餐，把故事经过一五一十的告诉他，才突然觉得，他是我生命中重要的朋友，这人看过去，一点都不正经，吊儿郎当的，但说起话来倒是头头是道。我感谢他，一直都这么关心我。感谢在我大学生涯里，有他的出现。话都说完以后，我倒是轻了，我知道一个人的我，依然能够很好。
Sook Har特地留下来，听我诉说，我倒是睡着了。知道他们的关心，知道大家都要我过得好，不受伤害。她说了句话，你有多爱医科？？？试试想这问题，我付出了多少？我对得起爸爸，妈妈吗？？答案：我做得不够好，我还能做得更好。从今天开始，我要为我爱医科，我爱爸爸，妈妈为前提把书读好，我要做个好医生。我要做个像我从小就仰慕的那些好医生。
今天一个人上图书馆去，只见到女生比男生还多，也晓得这些女生都是大学的佼佼者，她们一个人也过得很好，我也一样可以，她们为医科的付出，我也一样做得到。
今天总觉得这日子好熟悉，一方面是楼下AUNTY的生日，一方面是吊儿郎当的李沃清，结束了他的单生生涯，他注册去了。我衷心的祝福他们过得的幸福快乐。
Today Alvin and I was eating lunch in Taj,we were chatting,he told me,see clearly what is the priority in life.To me,now i need to listen and ponder a while to make any decision.I am learing to grow i supposed.He came over with the drumsticks he cook,and also a tray of tomatoes and 3 bar of chocolates.He told me that his classmate told that this chocolate is good.I was telling him,aren't you said that eating chocolate is unnecessity but why do you buy it for me,then he was laughing and teasing me because you like to eat,that's why i buy.
Sook Har came over to cook Asam Laksa.It's yummy of course,before eating dinner he left,something happened to his friend.He called me when he is walking back,but after he found his friend,he just hang off the phone.He supposed to call back,in the end,he didn't do so.Wondering what is the priority in his life???Friendship???I didn't expect myself to be anywhere top 3,but i just really can't convince myself.But i will let time to show me and let him show me how things going to turn out to be.
When i am worrying,what is he doing?Perhaps nothing....like Alvin said,only girls will think about a lot of things but guys won't.As a girl,i need to know how to protect myself!!!
What's right?What's wrong?I have no idea,who can tell me the answer,no one beside myself to see and decide every single thing.Have been studying with him since last tuesday,things changed and changed as usual.He kept on saying something that irritated me but at the same time treating me good.Haih,don't know.....
Slim = pretty???Is this an equation???To me,all the guys are like that.But why is that at the same time keep feeding people food and asking people to be slim.I don't know how,as for myself,i have this super paranoid of people asking me to do something.i will do it for myself,but i wonder will love change someone,will someone comprimise all those request???I dont know....
Will know when time comes:)
Yesterday was chatting with Siew Wen on MSN.She was telling me that she told mum shouldn't tell me to say yes,mum wasn't so happy with what was she saying.But i knew,both of them care,Siew Wen cared that if mum they all kept on telling me to say yes,i didn't choose mr.right.At the same time,i know mum and Ma Ney care that,i will be hurted or there is someone to take care of me.I see all this clearly.I told Siew Wen,no worries,i will judge this myself,may be sometime love will be blind.But the most important is not regret doing something.That's the most important i would say.
Was talking to Dad this morning for sometime,he was telling me business is not so good,only time business which is better is during school holiday.I understand this clearly,wish that i could graduate faster to reduce his burden.He has been working so hard for us,thank you,dad.I know that you wouldn't want me to be hurt,i will make sure study go first then others follow by then.I will do so,Dad!!!
He called me and he said he is already outside the apartment at 11am,i was still in big mess,just finished cleaned kitchen,after talking to dad and mum for an hour,felt so happy get to talk to everyone from home,Dad and Mum,Ma ney,Kak Lah,Uncle Tat Weng,so happy to know that everyone is doing good.
He told me to open the door,but oh ooo i am still in pyjamas,hehe,but not too bad,just a bit messy,he brought over a chinese cabbage and dried shrimp, a few cloves of garlic to stir fry vegetables,then i cook nestum fish.It's good surprisingly.I cleaned the house after cooking,he was sitting and studying,then i took bath and Alvin is back,we had lunch together,and he just left not long ago....
Things getting better,both of us know where are we heading to,and still come back to the round one,exam is around the corner,we are going to take 5 exams this summer,and our destiny is future doctors,so we have no other way but just to study loads and loads to be a good doctor.Better get myself back to book,or else will be nagged:)
Finally i went to Mc breakfast this morning,with my 2 dearest housemates and Sook Har,it's yummy.So sweet of Ing Lee,taking her Mc fresh to share it with me from the other corner,really thank you for thinking of me and sharing it to me,she was telling me how good it's,she had it today is the 4th time,whenever she goes for Mc breakfast,she will have Mc fresh.Thanks,Ing Lee.
An ordinary day,not to say about him appearing in Mc D,then go to library with me.,teaching me study.But really don't know what are all these changing attitudes,is like weather,a while sunny,a while raining.I am sorry,i couldn't cope so fast.It's me who can't cope with something new.I like an ordinary me,ordinary life.
But just wish that after rain,there's a rainbow:)
Today Ing Lee came over to take bath,i told her to use my hairmask,my body shop French Tickling bath,i sprayed hair moisture kick for her,all these just remind me of Ivy,Ing Lee said that bathing here at our apartment is like bathing as a Princess,so many nice smell things.All these just remind me of Ivy,whenever i go to her room,to take bath or whatever,she will share everything she has.Perfume,make up,new bath,lotion,every single thing.She will help me blow dry my hair,draw eyeliner for me,put on eye shadows for me.It's really fun.I wish time could turn back,but i know it wouldn't.Just wish that they are happy with what they are doing now.Hugs.Miss them so much:(
Today i was feeling alright,an ordinary day,as usual,so many things running in my mind,if one day i got nothing to worry about.It's not me anymore i supposed.When i was walking alone from 7th hospital to Furshet,for some simple shopping.My phone vibrated,eh,so curious,who will call me at this time,the screen showed 012xxxxxxx,it's Maxis number,just curious who will call me.When i picked up the phone,hehe,he is trying to be polite,:"can i speak to Siew Jing please in Mandarin?".Then i shouted: "hey,Woh Ching,it's you!!",i am so happy,haven't been talking to him from last summer after i came back from Malaysia.
He wanna tease me,he was trying to pretend that he is someone else.Haha,of course he didn't manage to,i have been talking with him through phone since form 2,how can i don't recognised his voice.The purpose of him calling is to tell me that he gonna end his single life,going to get registered with his girlfriend on 23 of May.I am happy for him of course,wish him happy birthday because his brithday is on 1st of May,i am so sorry,i didn't message you,then he said so belated wishes,i told him,it's ok,it's still May,hehe!!!.The 2nd thing he told me is,someone already got together with someone,don't be sad,he told me,he said don't committe suicide,i was laughing hahaha to him,i knew this ages ago i said,i am not sure how true is the stories,but i knew this sometime back.When i first knew this story,i am wondering and felt a bit upset,why the girl could be her,can't be someone else.I wrote him an email,but i didn't send in the end.Today,when Woh Ching retell this,i am doing ok with that,i will wish them happiness if they got together.But i still wish is not her,i don't know why,but i just don't feel like she is the one for him.
Later when i got into bus,saw missed call from Chuey,felt so wasted,how can i miss her call.I sms her telling her that my phone was on silent mode,she called me back,we talked for sometimes.I am so so so happy.I felt that this friends are still so close to me,they still concern about me,i am not alone no matter what happen.Really thank you,Chuey.Chuey said that though all these people already became people's husband,but still noisy and talking nonesense and laugh loudly.I miss the noise and the laughter,i miss those time we hanging out in mamak stall for at least 5 tables.Really wish to see them really soon.
Shall do something about 2010 gathering,so that i won't regret,what i have been talking for long,make sure all of us can meet.Must take some action.Action better than talk.
Generally,i am doing alright these few days.Things still keep on changing, non stable.Some time i am pissed off,sometime i miss that,sometime i wish all this could stop,let me get back to my routine,but one thing for sure i never regret all these happens,like Siew Wen told me,it will be a wonderful and sweet memories.
I must get myself back on track.I am not alone...there are always someone,thanks for everyone that concern!!!
