2 days before to end of 2008,everyone will be pondering what have i done in 2008,everyone will be asking,have you done anything useful?have you done anything special?I tried to recall,but i didn't manage to do so,if i recall,i will only manage to recall,how did i celebrated new year when Ivy,Vinvie,Cheryl,Khoo and others around(this was 2006 new year).I can't really recall what have i done,to me,is a routine year,a year that filled with a lots of book,a lot of exams,a lot of knowledge to put in the limited space of my brain,a year that i miss home,a year that how am i looking forward to go home,last year i was about to go home at this time,but as usual,worried about exams before reaching home.All these are routines!!!
But this year 2008,a bit different,looking forward for Siew Wen to come,looking forward what can i cook for her,how can i make her happy and to be like home,I want to bring her as many places as i could,i want to let her eat as many good food as i can,i want to let her bring back as many as things that she could.I don't really think of how am i going to celebrate new year,but i am looking forward to go Kiev on 1st of January to pick her up.Just curious,what will she thinks about this place-Ukraine,a place that i have been staying for 5 years and more,a place that amount of people can speak english can be counted by fingers,a place full of rude people.Just hope that she will have a wonderful and safe trip.
For myself,new year resolution....So "cliche" to say these 1001 time:
1.Diet to normal BMI.
2.Study to be a good doctor,a doctor that can save people.
3.Pass all my exams until i graduate.
4.Don't waste money,spend wisely.
5.Social medicine exam coming on 12 of Jan before leaving for Europe trip,excel in it!!!
Hope this year resolutions will turn into reality by my own effort!!!
I was talking to my mum on thursday while waiting for Alvin to come back for dinner,amazingly i managed to finish the 300 minutes of free call,i don't know how too,i never felt like i have talked for 300 minutes through out the week.But i call home more frequent than i do.I told my mum to sleep earlier,then she said never mind,she is free and we can chit chat.Then she was telling a word...a phrase which made me a bit sad,she was telling me her friends already started buying big prawn to keep for chinese new year but she is not buying because her daughters are not coming back,if her daughters are coming back she will buy very big prawns and a lot of prawns.At that moment,my tears almost running down,i have never thought that she would be like that,for me,she is so carefree,so happy go lucky,never cross my mind that she misses us a lot and she really wants us to be home especially chinese new year.
Still remember last year,after neurology exam,i called her,i didn't know should i go back for Chinese new year or not,she said sure,why not,then she had been so happy,preparing for me to come back,preparing for me to be home,she bought so many things,and she told me,she said why you didn't give me a surprise,then i laughed,i said i don't want,later you will faint in front of me,what should i do then.The home was filled with really joyful moment after i said i am going back,everyone was so happy,remembered i eventually heard the laughter from the background in the phone,i really can feel the joy in them.During home, we took a lot of picture in my dad's hometown,then my mum said if not because of i am back,they won't be taking so many pictures.I wish i could be home for the following CNY.This year i didn't manage to do so,if i really do so,mum will be missing Siew Wen even more,so better stick to the actual plan.Next year i doubt i can do so too,but the following one,i wish and hope and pray that i can celebrate with my family.
Feliz Navidad to everyone!!!
Christmas again,most of the people envy that i am overseas when it's christmas,because thinking that there will be a white chirstmas but in the price of having white christmas,we must bear the coldness,must bear the melting snow that splash on our jeans,must well prepared of snow cap and umbrella to prevent sickness.But still i wish that i can celebrate my next chirstmas in Finland,the place of where christmas origin,where the santa claus village situated,hope my dream come true.
I really got surprise present when Fariq claus(pink santa) walked here just to send us christmas present,really thank you for his thoughtfulness,i love the present so much,really think that always warm to have present from someone so far away.Thank you Ivy and Fariq.I am happy that Ivy already started working.But lucky that on christmas eve,she doesn't need to work,she could hang out with her friends and the same time she can spend buying what she wants on her own.Really happy for her.Missing last year we were in her room having our christmas eve dinner,we had a lot of fun exchanging present and had good food.Wish that we could do that again soon!!
A year before we had Dr.Ivy Lam,Dr.Vinvie Hee and Dr.Cheryl
Chan with us...Soon Dr.Fariq(pinkie) will be leaving us here:(
I am blessed with the best mum,i am blessed with the best siblings,i am blessed with the best thing in the world.Since small,i have been so lucky,i went to many places compare to my friends,i got the best toy,i got the best food,expensive food,i got the latest toy,remembered my mum always buy me Felix the cat's stationary,water bottle from SIngapore,Colleen's colour pencil from Singapore(consist of 72 colours),i used the fanciest and different things from others....
My greatest mum sent me parcel yesterday,there are a lot of hustle she took,she came all the way from Kelantan by train,just to send my things,i felt like crying when i said thank you to her,i knew i will never thank her enough,she said :'Ming and i peeled the "petai" until 2am"I was stunned a bit,i don't know what to say,i knew i will never thank her enough.
Sometime not the food,but the effort of going all the way to send and the effort to wrap each and every single thing so that it will reach Ukraine without any deformation.I got no word to say beside i am really*10 blessed.
Today is my daddy's brithday.WIsh Him happy always and healthy always.Miss them a lot:(
Today one of my friend ask me,your best friend is the friend since your primary school or secondary school,at that moment i answered her,is primary school,but at the same time,i am thinking of Khong Ming(i know he is),but that moment, the person i told her was Wen Li,but seriously i really don't know that did she still feel so,i got a mail from her yesterday,i am so glad that i am not forgotten but at the same time that i am a bit reluctant to say that she is my best friend anymore because i don't know the news about latest her,i know everyone else beside her,I knew what happen to Khong Ming(with details),Pi Chuey,Kee Man,even Ghee Tuan but just not her.This made pondering of my answer.
But without i realising it,i have lots of friend that have been holding me through the university life, Ivy, Vinvie, Cheryl, Khoo, Yen yin, Kee and Ivan,of course not to forget about my housemate Alvin and CH.In addition, i knew a friend that always concern about me,telling me must study well,telling me don't always party,she will spend her time teaching me in the library every friday,we don't always meet,we seldom hang out together,we have no obligation among us,but we know that both of us click and she does concern about me and i do concern about her though we didn't even say hi online.I knew another similarity between both of us,i knew that she loves receiving card which got a lot of words inside.Great,thank God for sending this friend for me.
I am lucky:)Just wish that friendship among all of us will be forever!!!
Thousand and one people already told me that,enjoy study life,enjoy university's life because working life is terrible and horrible,last saturday,all of my siblings were chatting in a chat room in MSN,my er jie said:"miss those time i was in university,you 2 please enjoy your university life,appreciate it."Today Khong MIng said again,how good to be a student,can have long holiday,no need to worry about no leave,i knew being a student is great,you can do thing on your own pace,but no money into the pocket,the money is from our parent,and soon 2009 going to be globalisation economic reccesive,how could them struggle just to give us more pocket money.
Thinking about this will just make people miserable,shall just cutdown unneccesity expenses,being a child of 6 siblings,i knew i don't look like one,i have been having the best thing,eating the best food,going wherever i want,not only me but all my other siblings,we are just lucky to be in my parent's arm:)
Today i got a beautiful card from Japan,Aki sent it to me,i am always super tremendously happy to receive a card compare to an e-card and also a sms.I just like a letter,it's just me who like to flip through old card and having lots of fun reading oldies card.
2009 going to come to an end,pondering what did i get in 2008???Had i done with my resolution???
I was so touched to get a sms on Saturday evening,saying that my room will always be your 2nd home in Simferopol,i felt so touched,really felt so heart warming after seeing that sms,thanks a lot,my dear friend,Sook Har,thanks for lending me a hand whenever i need.
That evening was chatting with Ivy,she kept on asking me am i okay,i didn't sound ok to her,she said,but really thanks a lot for caring though you are so busy,no worries about not putting any comment after reading my blog,i knew you are concern,i knew you always care about me,thank you!!
Yesterday evening,Korea time already 1am,i still got a call from Khong Ming,asked me:"hey,who pissed you off,are you ok?".At that moment,i knew that he cared about me from far,he can call me up just because after reading my blog,then we chatted for quite long on skype because i didn't want to waste his credit talking on phone.Really thank you,Khong Ming,thanks for always being there,thanks for the concern though we are so far apart!!
While talking to Khong Ming on skype,i was chatting with Kee Man on Msn messenger,he asked me have you eaten your dinner?I said haven't,then he said why?On diet?i said no,then he kept reminding me to have my dinner before he went offline.I felt so touched,i felt this holiday for him is to rest,but to me,the distance between him and me get so much closer,we chatted online quite often,last time in school,we seldom talk,we cared about each other but we don't talk,but this holiday make things change,then he told me,if you need someone to talk to,can always email me.I really felt i am so lucky,so many people who is really care about me though we are at different continent of the world.Thanks a lot,Kee Man,thanks for all the words and phrases that you had never told me before this,but you do tell me over this holiday.
Yesterday i had an outing to Sevastopol,a city which is already aged 225 years,a city which is an hour away from Simferopol,we went there initially for chinese food,but we had lots of fun taking photo at the seaside though the weather is freezing cold.I had lots of fun:)
From left: Vijay,Farooq,Munira,Nithia,Fatin and me
I am posing in front of the light towel:)
Food that we ordered at Chinese restaurant Sevatopol,from left Gong bao fish,spicy and sour soup,sweet&sour fish,Gong bao fish again,Sizzling hot plate and fried rice.Opps,forgot to take picture of my favourite dessert,fried milk:(
I wasn't very hapy yesterday morning,i was very pissed off with every single thing they did,i wasn't feel like doing what i routinely do,so i don't,i don't wanna care what is happening and just let it be...
After class,i still pissed off with all the words they said,all the phrases and sentences and statements they said,if last time,i would have just run to Ivy and Vinvie and complaint to them,then i will be fine,but now no more shelther,no more 2nd home in Ukraine,so i have to face it with smile,so smile let everything says bye bye...
After class,we went to huge hypermarket-Metro(Germany own hypermarket),mid way of airport,Ivy,if you are here,you will be so happy,i missed you so much when i am wandering in the hypermarket alone,i missed those time we shared our same interest looking for something new and uncommon for Ukrainian but not for us,we are so excited to see something cheaper and fancier,really miss you a lot.
On the way to Metro,Alvin said a phrase,no matter how,everyone will have their up and down in life,everyone will have their happy and sad time,just deal with it and life need to proceed,fully agreed,i raised up both of my hands,what is the point of you alone feeling sad and miserable and people wouldn't feel that it's so important for them,what is that to feel dying for when people think it's such a small deal,but i must do it the best since for me it's not small deal,may be a small deal now,but not a small deal in the future.So live it brightly.
Time to apply all these postive root in my life,in my studies,in my daily routine,in my realtionship,i need to look upon every single thing,every book and every paragraph and every sentence that i read,this will made me a good doctor,feeling insufficiency of knowledge all this while,feeling inadequate as a person also as a medical student,just set a target and achieve it.I can hit the point:)
I wished the people in this whole world would be like mum so selfless,so generous,to her others are more important than herself.
I wished everyone like CH,so selfless,no matter how tired he is,he will be dragging himself to kitchen,cook dinner,doing what other called him to do.
I wished everyone like Kee Man,he helped everyone to mark their essays and paper for free,he even helped the whole batch of his same batch mates thought about their final thesis topic,how selfless he is,he never thought of how if other people will do better than him after giving people idea,how i wish everyone likes that.
But i am still lucky to meet at least a few out of no one,but the fact is in this world more selfish people than selfless people,it's time to stand my own feet,people won't be holding you and never give you up,only you manage to walk till the end,must learn how to stand on own feet,so when people backstep you,you still stand still and keep moving forward.
Must remember a phrase "bu guan jiang lai fa sheng shen me shi,ming yun zhang wo zai ji zhi shou chong",only me myself can make the history and miracle happen.
Don't care about those selfish people,they will have their "destiny",i would be good and continue be good though sometime i am tired being selfless,but mum thought me to be like that.....
It really never crossed my mind that such a small act that i did will make my sister so touched and crying like a baby,never thought that such a small act will make her so happy.This telling me every act count,every small thing that we do or did or going to do in life do affect someone,especially those people we love and those who loves us a lot.Time to concern about my family more,my mum and my dad especially,every second count,every moment count!!!
I felt myself independent today,i felt i can do it alone,i felt i can be like how i was,i am strong enough:)
